Run Lindsay Run

Last night the heat index finally dropped below 115 and was able to go for a run, for the first time since I've moved in, to take in the scenery along the Mississippi River Parkway. Being an elite runner is something that I have always dreamed about, but lets face it, after a mile and a half of enjoying myself I feel like I would rather just lay down in a pile of fresh cut grass (which I am allergic to) and die. That being said, I still think that there is something therapeutic about going for a nice long run (with some walking incorporated in). I can crank up the power tunes and just run, with no particular goal or destination. No where to be, no deadline to meet, no scheduled times, just GO. Sometimes I get wound up so tightly, and I forget to slow down. I have always been the kind of person that likes to schedule herself to the MINUTE, each and every day (bathroom break today 12:45). I wake up in the morning at the exact time I need to in order to get ready and get to work, I have appointments scheduled throughout the day, and everything else is scheduled in specifically as well. Running is something I can just go do. Whenever I want, however  I want. I think that is a lot of the reason I struggled with doing something with my undergraduate degree in Kinesiology. Without additional education, my opportunities were limited to personal training. Honestly, I just can't see myself enjoying that. I will preach up and down the importance of physical activity, but to me it is an escape not a chore. To make it a job would put a lot of pressure on me to succeed in it, and less pressure to actually enjoy it. I am as some would say a perfectionist. Those of you who know me best just chuckled, because perfectionist is putting it lightly. To be a personal trainer would mean I would have to be the BEST personal trainer, always at the top of my game, number one. That mixed with the fact that I am NOT perfect was simply a disaster waiting to happen. For now I let running be the one thing in my life that isn't a competition. And if I ever complete that marathon, I definitely won't be first, but you can bet I wont be last!